Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Funerals, sketchy ghettos, and loose teeth

I had an interesting week! As you probably know, my sweet grandmother passed away on Thanksgiving Day, and her funeral was in Portland. I was gone from Thursday to Sunday. And man alive, that trip was fun. Now that may sound weird seeing as the purpose of my visit was to attend a funeral. But let me explain. I'm not very familiar with my family on my mother's side. I have cousins I don't know the name of and others I wouldn't even recognize if they walked right up to me and started a conversation. I loved having this time to reconnect and become friends with family I haven't seen in 15 years. Some even longer.

My brother and I flew out there Thursday morning in time for a family dinner and the viewing that night. My dad, other brother, and sister got in late after the viewing. Friday morning was the funeral. And the weather was terrible! There was a snow storm overnight. Nothing compared to what we have here in Utah, but apparently they aren't used to snow in Oregon? It took us 45 minutes to drive to the church from our hotel, instead of the usual 10. So annoying. Good thing we left so early! The funeral was really lovely though. Us grand kids all sang a song for the prelude. And it was great to hear all about my grandmother's life. I know what memories I have of her, but it was wonderful to hear more about how she grew up. After the funeral and luncheon, the cousins gathered together in a room and started having this talent show type deal. It's the weirdest thing in my family. I seriously don't get it. We can't all be in the same room together without breaking into song or making fools of ourselves somehow. My sister is playing the piano, and my brothers and I are singing at the top of our lungs. We saw some dancing, heard some jokes, found that my veins aren't as deep as the doctors think they are, the works. It was SO much fun. Then all of a sudden it was time for dinner, and we decided to go to Red Robin. After dinner we went back to the hotel and played games. We only had one person complain about our noise level which was probably a miracle. But it was only 9:30! Lame! Like you're really trying to sleep at 9:30. The last of us managed to stay up until about midnight. Saturday was a free day. Which basically meant we spent the whole day playing games. Literally. Until dinner when we went to my cousin's house, had leftovers, sang, and continued to play games haha. Sunday morning was when it was time to go back home. My brother and I took a shuttle to the airport and managed to get home just fine despite a REALLY close connection in Seattle because of delays. The rest of the fam wasn't as lucky though. They got stuck in Chicago because of a storm. They slept on cots "in the sketchy ghetto in the middle of the airport with a bunch of other homeless people." And by 'slept,' I mean they stayed awake all night, afraid they were going to get robbed or murdered. At least that's what my sister says haha.

Anyway, it really was a great trip. I LOVED spending that time with my momma, daddy, brothers, and sister. I get to see them again in 10 days for Christmas break! Yahoo! They are so exhausting though haha. I'm no longer used to being active and loud every second of every day. I'll have to get more sleep over Christmas, or I don't know if I'll survive the whole 2 weeks!

As for my eye, all is well. Like I said earlier, it had started healing itself last Monday morning. Thank goodness. Because of the whole prescription and meds fiasco. But my eyes are doing just fine. On the other hand, I have a loose tooth. Which SUCKS! Sunday night when we got home, we had tacos for dinner. I guess there was a piece of gristle in the hamburger, and I chomped on it HARD, and it HURT. I felt it was loose that night. I have a dentist appointment next week, so I'm hoping it's nothing serious, and it will just tighten up after a few days. But I'm keeping an eye on it. If it gets any looser, I will see if I can go in earlier. As of right now, there's no pain or anything which makes me think it will be alright. But it has only been 2 days. You never know. And it's legitimately loose. Like, I can wiggle it with my tongue. Gross. Someday my body will stop doing retarded things. I hope.

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Needles make me turn wimpy.

My eyes are dumb. I wish they weren't, but they are. Let me tell you what's happened over the past few weeks.

About 2 weeks ago, I was experiencing some dryness and the tiniest bit of pain in my eyes. That usually means I need to switch my contacts. I'm supposed to do it RELIGIOUSLY every month, I know. But I just forget, okay! So I changed them and expected the pain to go away. It didn't.

Then they got really, REALLY red. With a particularly dark red circle around my irises. Not a little bloodshot red. Like the worst pink eye ever or like I was on drugs red. For real. So I assumed I had pink eye and went to get some over the counter drops for it. I used them for a few days, and they didn't help AT ALL.

So now it's the start of Thanksgiving break, and I finally realize I should probably go see a doctor about this instead of scaring my kids at school along with everyone else I see. I don't even know where to start. I haven't had to visit a doctor here in Provo since my freshman year. And let's just say that's when I lost all hope in doctors. So it's a good thing I don't get sick that often. (Sorry to all you doctors out there.) I searched online for a place that would take my insurance. I found one or two offices. Of course they were all closed when I tried to call and set up an appointment. Who would have thought with it being Thanksgiving and all?

So yesterday I wake up, and to my surprise, my eye doesn't hurt anymore! Yeah, it feels really dry, and is still pretty red, but all in all, it was like some miracle happened in the night. I was able to find a doctor to visit that night. When we called, the receptionist told us there was a 25 minute wait. Okay cool. We ended up waiting for almost 2 WHOLE HOURS!!! Unbelievable. I guess it was only about an hour and a half by the time I actually met with the doctor, but still. Geez. When he walked in the room, he shook Keith's hand, but then gave me a high elbow five because he didn't want to get my disease. Weird, but I think I actually liked him. He checked it out and told me that it wasn't an infection. (I sort of already knew that seeing as yucky crusty gunk was never one of my symptoms.) He told me that they were obviously EXTREMELY inflamed and swollen. He said it resembled what really terrible allergy cases can look like. He kept asking me if I just moved here or if there was some change in my environment or if I was allergic to anything. After all of my responses were no, he was just baffled as to why my eyes would have freaked out so badly. So he decided he wanted to do some blood tests. Apparently there are some weird diseases that could cause this to happen? I don't know.

Now I don't want to sound like too much of a baby, but I guess I am. I've never had to get blood drawn before. Lucky I guess? I've tried to donate blood a few times but to no avail, and let me tell you why. My veins like to hide. And not like, "Oh, it just takes a second with that uncomfortable elastic cutting off all circulation to make them pop up." I mean, "You've tried both arms twice already. I'm making a fist. I've been standing up and trying to shake all the blood downward for the past 3 minutes. This rubber band literally makes me want to cut my arm off. You're pressing so hard into the crevice of my elbow that I think you're touching the skin on the other side. And no, my veins are not visible at all."

Anyway, after like 10 minutes of searching, the lady thought she finally found one. She jabbed the needle in, and the first thing she said was, "Dangit." Bahahahahahaha! Wow, I just LOVE doctors! I guess she didn't quite make it in? But she jiggled it around and pushed a bit deeper and then all the blood started coming. Thank goodness. Then she said, "For future reference, tell them to go right in the middle and DEEP." So I guess that's what I'll be saying to anyone who needs to draw my blood from now on.

Seriously though, it hurt SO much. I remember this feeling. It's the same one I had the last and final time I tried to donate blood when my vein collapsed. (Yay.) Like, it hurt to move my left arm. At all. Like my muscle was spasming out of control and pain was shooting up and down my bicep. I could still feel it when I woke up this morning, but now I think the feeling is finally gone. Hooray!

The doctor wrote me a prescription for some eye drops with an antibiotic. They send their prescriptions electronically to the pharmacy. So I went to go pick it up like 30 minutes later, but they said they never got the prescription. It was close to closing time, so we just let it slide and assumed they would have it taken care of in the morning. When we called at noon, they still never received the prescription. We had them call the doctor's office to hopefully straighten things out. We're about to call again. I've gone another 24 hours now without the meds I need to help me not look like a freak. I hope you have your act together people!

On the bright side, my eyes is continuing to heal on its own. Finally. It felt even better when I woke up this morning than it did yesterday. I still want those meds though.

The End.

Saturday, November 30, 2013

Days 25 through 30... Yeah, I've been busy haha

Day 25: I am SO thankful for my freshman year at BYU. On Sunday Keith and I went to church with my freshman brother because he was giving a talk. It was very nostalgic. They have sacrament meeting, Sunday school, and relief society in all of the same rooms I had them in as a freshman. Crazy. It just reminded me of what kind of person I was when I graduated from high school and what kind of person I turned out to be at the end of that year. I have never gone through a time of so much growth. I'm convinced my freshman experience was different than most. The friends I made then, are still my best friends. We're going on 6 years with each other. They are literally the most incredible people I know. They taught me so much. How to have fun, how to love others as well as MYSELF, how to play sports haha. I came out about 20 pounds lighter after freshman year, thank goodness. I don't even know what else to say other than that year was magical. I will remember it forever. (I can remember most of that year like it happened yesterday.) You guys will probably continue to be my best friends forever. I am so happy that God put us all together on that floor in Hinckley Hall. And you boys across the quad in Stover. I will forever be grateful for your kindness, faith, and love that have built me up and strengthened me over and over again.

Day 26: I'm thankful for eyes that I may see the color of butterfly wings. For the last 2 weeks almost, I've had this weird eye sickness? I don't know what to call it. It's in both eyes. They have just been really red, and I can't seem to get enough of that burning sensation! I look like a druggie. All the time. Seriously they are so red. And they're tired all the time. They hurt to be open. And they're really tender. Like, if I close my eyes and softly touch my eyelids it hurts. I thought it might have been pink eye, so I haven't done anything to try and figure out what's wrong with them. I thought it would go away after a day or two. I've been wearing my glasses almost all day every day as well, thinking that would help. But obviously, after 2 weeks, it must be something else, and I should probably go to the doctor to get it checked out. I just hate doctors... But I love my eyes even more! I want to be able to see clearly again. And get rid of my hideous glasses! Blech!

Day 27: I'm grateful for time off of work! Most of the time, I like teaching. Sometimes I like children. ALL THE TIME, I like the time off I have away from teaching and children hahaha. I am just so happy to have a break right now for Thanksgiving. The constant chatter of "Mrs. Adams, your eyes are red. Mrs. Adams, why are your eyes so red? Mrs. Adams, do you have pink eye? Mrs. Adams, you should go to the doctor." I've been hearing for the past week have been getting REALLY old. I was looking forward to this time to relax and spend time with my family. My brother has been living with me over break so that he would have someplace to eat (They closed the freshman cafeteria this weekend.), and people to hang out with since most of his buddies are out of town. Keith and I have LOVED having him here. Thank you for being such an awesome house guest little bro. This break is going to be over all too soon though. I go back to work on Monday. Wish me luck haha!

Day 28: I am grateful for my grandmother Lola. She passed away on Thanksgiving Day. She was probably the most faithful woman I know. And she was never afraid to share her knowledge of the Gospel. That's one of the things I admired most about her. As I was falling asleep last night (er, trying to sleep. I couldn't really) I started thinking about all of the memories I have of her. To be honest, I don't have a TON. She lived 3000 miles away from me, but I guess I saw her quite often for that being the case. Here are some of the most prominent memories I have of her.
  • As far as I can remember, she's the one who gave me my first piano lesson. My mom is probably thinking, "No that was me. When you were like 4 years old." But in my mind, it was Grandma. I have a clear picture of her teaching me the proper fingerings on the first song in the green book.
  • She makes the most delicious homemade raspberry jam.
  • I got a stuffed animal from her when I was really little. He was a white elephant with a patriotic shirt on or something? I named him Newt.
  • She had 'that room' upstairs in her house. Even though the entrance was usually blocked by something, we cousins always made our way in to explore all of the old things and musical instruments that were sitting around in there.
  • She came to my baptism when I turned 8. She was one of the speakers.
  • She bakes like no one else. She was especially well known for her cinnamon rolls. Every time she flew out to visit, she would bring 2 suitcases. One was filled with her clothing. The other was filled COMPLETELY with well packaged cakes, candies, brownies, and ingredients to do more baking. The only downfall was that it looked like a bomb went off in our kitchen every time she finished. :)
  • Asking us kids to go fetch her some 'genuine whipping cream.' We all thought she was talking about whipped cream. She was very disappointed when we brought back the wrong thing and had no idea what we did wrong or what she was even talking about. We weren't well versed in baking I guess?
  • She started taking community art classes and would always send our family little water color paintings. They're hanging on one of our cupboards in our kitchen. I love those things.
  • Once when she came to visit, she gave me these place mats for my house whenever I would have one. They are huge sunflower heads with little smiley faces sewn onto them. Grandma even added eyebrows because she thought they looked awkward without them. Mom thought I would hate them, but I actually loved them. Keith and I have had one sitting as part of a centerpiece on our table since we got married.
  • She came to my wedding. A few nights before I got married, she pulled me into her bedroom and had 2 dresses laying out on her bed. She asked me which one I wanted her to wear.
  • This conversation she had with Keith's younger brother at our wedding.
    Lola: So what are you going to do with your life?
    Joseph: Well I think I'm going to join the military after graduation.
    Lola: So you're not going to serve a mission?
    Joseph: I don't know.
    Lola: Have you listened to the prophet lately?
  • We met together in Idaho in April 2012 when I graduated from BYU, and my momma flew out. The whole time we were there, she tried to plan her funeral haha.
  • She was always honest, blunt, sincere, kind, aware of others, willing to serve, and happy.
I love her so much and probably didn't appreciate her as much as I should have when she was around. I hope we can make it out to Portland for the funeral later this week. Over the past few months, my biggest thoughts and concerns have been for my momma. I love her so much. I hope she knows how much I love her as well. I can't imagine losing her.

Day 29: I am thankful for the Plan of Salvation. My grandma Lola has been a widow for about 30 years. I never had the opportunity to meet my Grandfather. Either of my grandfathers actually. I am grateful to know that grandma is finally with her cute boy again. I think that thought is what's holding me together. It's hard for me to spend a few hours away from Keith. We've spent a few summers apart before, but we weren't even married then. I can't imagine being in this world for 30 years without him. I'm sure grandma must be so happy right now at their reunion. I am thankful that my family will be together forever. That idea gives me hope when things seem hard to bear. I am excited for when the time comes that I will be able to meet my grandfathers and see Grandma again.

Day 30: I guess it's appropriate to say this now, but I'm thankful for Christmas. I give Christmas a lot of crap sometimes because it seems to overshadow my favorite holiday, Thanksgiving. But even though I despise the corny Christmas music and a lot of decorations people put up on their lawns (Logan called me Scrooge just yesterday haha) I still do really enjoy Christmas. I am so blessed to have been born into my family. I love them with all my heart. I am so excited to go home over Christmas break and see my momma, daddy, brother and sister again. Too bad the missionary brother will miss it by like 2 weeks or something! I can't believe it. We will have been so close but yet so far.

Okay, so my brain is fried right now. Who knew that catching up an entire week of thankfulness would take so much out of you. It could be that it is really early in the morning. Or that I've been staring at a computer screen for so long, or that my eyes are really wacked up. But I just don't know what else to say. I hope I was able to get all of my ideas across without sounding weird... Anyway, I love November. Thank you for giving us a holiday that encourages people to be thankful. I love it.

This is my beautiful Grandmother on my wedding day. <3

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Days 22 through 24

Day 22: I am SO SO SO thankful for captivating movies and television shows. I've never been hugely interested in either of those things. I'm hard to impress when it comes to movies. Over the years, it has become rare that I'll watch one and care to watch it again. Most TV shows, I find difficult to get involved in or sloppy. But man alive, when I find one actually worth watching, I can't get enough of it. And after a long and exhausting day, sometimes there's nothing I like to do more than just sit on the couch with Keith and watch a show together. For example, Catching Fire. Seriously one of the most amazing films I have ever seen. I bet you never would have guessed seeing as I saw it 2 nights in a row haha. I'm blown away at how Jennifer Lawrence and Josh Hutcherson (thank goodness for him) have matured and enabled me to feel and love their characters. ALL of the characters in the movie were exactly how I pictured them while reading the book. Some were even better than I imagined. Johanna Mason. EXCELLENT WORK. It's difficult to find a book whose movie adaptation is actually WORTHY of it, but Catching Fire passed that test with flying colors. I think we might even go see it again over Thanksgiving break haha. If you like the book, go see that movie NOW. I promise you won't be disappointed.

Day 23: I'm grateful for coupons haha. I'm not an extreme couponer or anything like that. I have friends who are. I just haven't gotten started with that yet. Anyway, I love the coupons I do find and use. Keith and I went to a movie Saturday night and had some coupons for the theater. We ended up getting two slurpees and some nachos for $4.75. I know that doesn't sound like some fabulous deal or anything, but when the normal price for those items together would have been about 14 dollars, I feel pretty proud of myself only paying a third of that price.

Day 24: I'm thankful for cards and other fun games to play. My family grew up playing games together. Like ALL THE TIME. I don't think a lot of people understand me when I say this haha. Not something like, 'Oh, we play games together on Sunday nights' or a casual 'Yeah, I like to play games.' I mean full on constantly playing games. Go to school every day. As soon as we come home, start playing games. Take a break for dinner. Then continue playing games. Get ready for bed. Oh wait. Let's play some more games. ALL day EVERY day. Probably another one of the reasons I'm so hyperactive as an adult haha. And man alive, my family is competitive. About everything. Seriously. Which I actually sort of love. Other people probably don't. Deal with it. :)

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Days 18 through 21

Day 18: This is going to taste so awful coming out of my mouth. But I really am grateful for technology. I know I'm not the most tech savvy person around. I have a 5 year old laptop and a dumb phone. But they serve my purposes just fine, the main purpose being staying in touch with my family and friends. Sunday night my brother came over for dinner, and we Face Timed my parents and sister. They were celebrating some birthdays. I really wish I could have been there in person. But I am so grateful for the next best thing. I was able to see them and hear them and talk to them. I love the technology that enables me to have those abilities at my fingertips any time I want. I already live 2000 miles away from my family, and I haven't been physically with them for about 15 months now. I can't imagine how sad I would feel if I was unable to talk or see them via technology.

Day 19: I'm thankful for our car. It isn't anything special. In fact, we've had to put a LOT of money in repairs into it since we got it. But I so appreciate having a mode of transportation. Originally, I was planning on riding a bike to work this school year. I only work about 18 blocks away (2 miles ish). But now that winter is creeping in, I realize why that was a crazy idea. Winter in Provo. No good. No way I would be riding a bike through that crap. I am so happy I have a car. I'm also grateful for Keith's kind co-workers. He has a friend who has been driving him to and from work for almost an entire year now. We were so lucky to find someone who was willing to do that for Keith. Paul, thank you, thank you, thank you.

Day 20: I'm grateful for the temple. Keith and I went on Tuesday night with some friends. (Thank you for inviting us guys! Keith and I aren't always the best at finding time to go...) Anyway, I just love being there. I'm so lucky to live in Provo where there is one so close to me. It's pretty crowded. All the time. But it's okay. I learn more every time I go, and I'm so glad that I have a husband who is worthy to be there with me and answer most of my stupid questions. :)

Day 21: I'm grateful for Keith's job. Keith has been working full time for about 2 and a half years now. He has been supporting our family ever since we got married. He worked while I finished school, and he's still working now. It was because of him that we were able to pay rent or eat the first year we were married. I am so thankful for that. Another reason I like Keith's job specifically is that he gets a lot of perks. He gets a free lunch every day in their company cafeteria. And that food can be pretty darn delicious! Sometimes I'll join him if I have a day off or something. He gets work swag (sweatshirts, tshirts, water bottles, etc), wins prizes (like our ipad mini), and gets free movie tickets. Like to the movie Catching Fire. Which we're going to see tonight. For free. With free popcorn. And soda. I love free stuff!!! AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THIS MOVIE! Watch the trailer here if you haven't seen it yet. AHHH! YAY!!! Yeah, talking to customers can sometimes be annoying, but we really have been so blessed just because of his job. I love it.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Days 15 through 17

Day 15: I am thankful for talents and talented people, especially those willing to share them. On Friday night we went to a talent show that a few of our friends were involved in. One of them is in a band, and they are fabulous. They blow me away every time they perform. Another friend participated in a humorous dance number, and it was a fantastic end to the show. I love being able to learn and observe others' talents. I'm thankful that appreciation of the arts is a talent of mine. It's one of my daddy's talents too. I didn't understand it when I was younger which was unfortunate. But I understand it now and love it. I can listen to people perform all day long, and it makes me so happy.

Day 16: I am grateful for music! I love listening to it, playing it, singing it, everything about it. Music is one of my favorite companions. It keeps me company when I'm alone. I can carry it with me all day and let it fill the silence when there's nobody around. It can breathe life into my soul when I'm bored or tired. It can inspire me and make me feel happy when I'm sad. It accompanies dance, sporting events, holidays, and my house cleaning parties. I just love it and can't imagine my life without it.

Day 17: I am thankful for hot water. It's Sunday morning. Church starts in under two hours. And half of our apartment complex is without hot water for some reason. Actually, we're without cold water as well. The only water we have is absolutely FREEZING, numb your hands, I'm going to lose some phalanges because of frostbite water. And I'm sorry but I am NOT showering in that water, and I am NOT leaving my house without a shower today. So if this issue isn't fixed, I might just have to read a few extra scriptures tonight or something to make up for my lack of church attendance haha. Yeah, I want my hot water back. Keith has called our managers so hopefully it's fixed soon.

This is my friend's band who performed at the talent show Friday night. They are called Brothers of Others. This is Popcorn Popping, one of their warm up/sound checks. And this is one of their songs called Soften my Heart.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Days 12 through 14

Day 12: I am thankful for showers! I guess this goes along with my whole cleanliness obsession, but I really love showers. I sweat SO MUCH when I work out. TMI? Don't care. It's insane. Like, I am drenched. Every time. Since I started my new program (Insanity), I can tell my metabolism is changing dramatically. My body will try and burn calories every chance it gets. Even during the days where the workout isn't quite as intense. It just makes me sweat and sweat and sweat. As a result, I LOVE taking showers. Random. The end.

Day 13: I am grateful for my job. No, it isn't my favorite. And yeah, it's crazy stressful and tiring. But I am grateful for the fact that I have a job at all. I'm glad that I get to work and do my part to support my little family. I especially appreciate that my job is exactly what I trained for. I spent 4 years at BYU majoring in elementary education, and I'm glad that I actually get to use my skills and talents in what I do. I feel sorry for those people who major in something and then never end up using that knowledge in their profession. Not that that's necessarily a bad thing. For some reason I just feel like personally, I wouldn't feel as accomplished? I don't know how to explain it.

Day 14: I am thankful for chap stick. Man alive, Utah is DRY. Every winter I forget about it until my fingers are all cracked and bleeding. And with these crusty crust lips I got, I just love me some chap stick. Fur real. It is so helpful.